My little Hero

It's been awhile since I wrote something here. To expect my wife to post an entry is as good as going to the moon and back. Like it has always been my dream, for my son to be reading this lines after the day Allah wants me back. I want him to know what his mommy and daddy is doing before him.
Akil is turning 20 months soon. He's forever running around and grabbing everything which catch his eyes. A very resourceful son as he learns the world every second and hopefully he would be a useful person in the future. Thats every parents dream for his son. I switched my career into IT line exactly 4 months back and working as a roaming destop engineer. This 4 months have been a learning journey for me. I see alot of new people and learnt alot be it in terms of my job scope and everything else outside my job scope. Alot of people inspire me and some become my inspiration in life. Hopefully my goal to be a better IT personnel will come into place. Time is the key to a person success definitely.

Time to go.... till we meet again. Malan signing off.

Its all quiet here while i'm penning this down. I miss my wife, could be she's on the way to work and Akil maybe still asleep, I just miss his laughter.Patiently bracing through this last hour till the end of shift. Than a day off for me, nothing planned for later, probably ganking Diablo3. Sometimes I just wonder is it just me as I grow older that I dont feel being engaged socially anymore like I used to be? People change with time but for me, it was tremendously.

First post of year 2014

The title says it all...since year 2009 was the last post between me and my beloved...5 years down the road and here I am. I'm 30,a married man,having the most cutest most adorable 8mth old son in this world,earning a stable income to survive the daily needs of a typical life of a singaporean. My wife is my backbone. I need her in life. Pursuing her dip in nursing and yeah thats her god-given talent. And a great cook no doubt. Masak best best pleaseeeee. Lol.And in a matter of a month or 2 it will be our 3rd year anniversary. Baba selalu doakan semoga kita berkekalan ke jannah My son, the apple of my eye, me and wifey will give him the best to be a better person be it in his life and religiously and hopefully he will grow up as a respectable man. By gods will. Aamin. Like his dad? Lol. My mum, the 24 hour homemaker and babysitter when me n wifey are at work. Praises to Him that my mum and wifey are understanding towards each other. Like my mum always remind us that we will always lean in support of each other. By gods will we will. K gotta go...insyallah will add more photos

Slamat kembali ke tanah air!

Greetings bloggies!

Yes yes im back from KL.

That long desired rest n distress from Singapore.

10 months of sweating in Punj Lloyd. 1 month of Class 4 lessons and after passing it on last Thursday and then a road trip to KL and skarang baru balik!

Lol. Cant say much lah. Too tired.

And no pix to satisfy u people la! All those memories are gon be only stuck in my head. Sorry!

And to all the culprits yang terbabit wit the KL trip. Welcome back to Singapore and happy stressing ur days back as usual!

And to you dear. Muacks love u always.

We made it thru yet again..

The title says it all.

We made it thru yet again.

We made it thru...those fightings were had for the last 3 days.

We had made it up to each other.

We met and we talked abt it.

Its so much different when we talked abt it on the phone
and face to face.

Saying it all out,expressing everything was so much much easier and
calmer.

Conversations didnt turned to screaming.

Thru out the night,
the radio had been airing our song.

Mad-Neyo.

God.

How we gazed at each other eyes.

That gaze...
they were communicating.

How that gaze from our eyes were trying to say
how much we love each other.
And how we regretted wat had happened.
We were so sorry.

That kiss...was so passionate indeed.
Suddenly we were surrounded by nuthing bt love.

Thou we thought we were at the worst stage of our relationship,
together we had proved that we were still holding so strong.

I love you dear.

Fate..will it side us?

Things happened.
Fights turned into screaming.
It was not sumtink new to us.

Ila sedih...sedih sangat.
He's not going to do anything abt it.

Perlukah aku terus mengharapkan?
Apakah maseh ada kerinduan yg tersimpan dihatimu sayang.
Atau mungkinkah aku seorg sahaja...

Sebagai seorg perempuan,
I juz need him to be there to listen to my complains.
To be there to show me and make me feel how important I am in his life.
No matter how shitty his life is..
No matter what he is going thru.

I had my time too.
And for me,boyfriend is the best person I can turn myself to.
And I realised,that doesnt work for him.


"We are in the worst stage of our relationship n I dont even have a thought of it recovering.
I am not in a state to go all out for it to make it work bcoz i am in an even worst state of my life be it in my career
n my life. I leave it to fate to c what it has in store for me.
God bless."
That was the msg you gave earlier.

You aint gonna do anything.
'I dont even have a thought of it recovering.'
Ya Allah...
Tuhan maha mengetahui apa yg ku rasa sesaat membaca nya.

I always and still wonder,
are you even afraid of losing me in your life?


Mungkin ini adalah dugaan ku.

Tapi mengapa ini semua terjadi bila aku telah mulai meyintaimu.
Tuhan maha mengetahui betapa payahnya utk hati ni terbuka utk menerimanya.

Namun ...
may be Im just a burden to him.

You dun need to take that extra mile if your heart do not want to.
Im not asking you to,
if its nt from ur heart.
Iklas adalah yg paling penting dalam sesuatu perhubungan.

Mungkin i harus korbankan perasaan sendiri demi utk kita.


Kepada Tuhan aku berdoa
Semoga Tuhan memberikn ku semangat utk menempuhi segalanya.
Hanya Dia mengetahui segalanya.
Hanya Dia yg memahami perasaan ini.

Ya Allah..
tabahkn lah hati hambamu ini.
Sesungguhnya aku seorg hamba yg lemah..
lemah menghadapi segala kekecewaan yg telah kau berikan padaku.

Namun iman di hati akan tetap mendorongku utk bangkit dn teruskn perjalanan.
Perjalanan sehingga hari yg telah kau tetapkn utk ku pulang kepadaMu.

Kepada Tuhan juga aku berdoa,
semoga dirimu diberi ketabahn hati utk menghadapi segala kesukaran,kesempitan dalam hidup
yg sedang kau alami.
Semoga Tuhan memberimu ketenangan dalam hati.

Ya Allah,
Kau berkatilah hubungan kami.
Kau restuilah perhubungan kami.
Seandainya memang ini jodoh kami,
Kau berilah kami hidayah.
Amin.

I've never give up on you,
so I hope you wun give up on me,
never give up on us.

We had built this beautiful relationship together.
Thru thick & thin.

Like the song that you are listening now..
''Stuck With Each Other''

I love you dear.

"Beautiful Night with Mr Jablalan xoxo"~~Day 3

Yesterday was the 3rd day of my AL.
Thank God I went out. At last!
Had a nice Asam Pedas,Dhal Lemak & Fried chicken for lunch over at Hubby's place.
Those dishes....Yummy!!
Thank you Mummy!
How I wish i could call her mak. Well I got very comfortable with her already.
But yah..mayb its too soon for that.

Soon after lunch we went out to catch a movie down @ Century Square.
~The Hauting of Connecticut~~
or was it The Haunting in connecticut???
Hahahah.
Story line was fine...the shocking audio was superb...bt it was actually S L O W.
Hhehehe.

You know what,
at one point I turned my head unintentionally and i saw a young couple,15-16yrs old teenagers,
Kissing!!!
Lol.
And i was so so excited that I tugged ubby's hand and went,
"B! B! I nampak budak2 belakang ngah SL!"
And ubby went,
"Ye ke??"
We laughed...
Zaman bila tu...
We'd played that game before.
Dulu masa age tu...boleh lah.
Tengok wayang tu masa yg paling best, *wink wink*
Sekarang...tengok wayang means tengok wayang. Lol.

After the show...its time for us.
Just the two of us..
Before that we went down to Kak Mas's place nak amek lauk.
Habes lah..
Satu kereta bau mee soto!!
Hahaha.. Im so super tempted kn nak rasa.
*Jilat tapak tangan*
Kak Mas ni memang pandai masak...
Salute!
Kak mas!!! Adik nak your cheesecake!
Nak Lagik!!! Nak!! Pleeeaaassee kak..
Nanti tunang I nk request 1 dulang full of ur sinful cheesecakes.

Farish Anaqi. (hopefully its the rite spelling)
This cute lil boy.
So scared of ubby.
Ape ke tdak...he's big,garang plak tu,
Alaa...dear pun satu.
Sengaja nk menyakat budak tu.
This cute lil' boy bila dh jumpa Ucu dia..siapla dia jadi gymnastik.
Siap la badan dia..lentok sini lentok sane.
Body suddenly automatically becomes so flexible.
Cute kn...macam nak cium2 je budak ni.
Tapi ngan i pun dia takut...hahaha.
Macamne eh??
Give him few months
Besar sikit confirm he'l be ok.
Love this boy :)

Soon after that we went somewhere to spend that last moment together before
we headed home.
To him,
I appreciated the beautiful night with you darling.
I used to think that i was moving too fast.
People around me condemned me for doing so..
I used to be so stressed out abt it...I used to be so so unsure.
Unsure of being in a new relationship,unsure of my life,unsure of myself and unsure of him.
And how Im not into him.

But now, all with God's will
Alhamdulillah.

Who cares abt wat other people think?
In the 1st place,do they even care abt wat I feel??

So yah...
Im so so certain abt my life now,
Esp abt my relationship.
Now when I look into his eyes,
I know Im feeling love.
Love for him...and his love for me.
God knows how that feelings develop.
How Im so into him now.

No matter how mad we were with each other,
No matter how our fights turned out to be so ugly,
At the end of it,we are still there.
Strongly together indeed.
More of like Marah-Marah Sayang.
Hehehe.
God knows how hard we went through.....A LOT.

Macam semlm..
im so so mad at him for buying those 4D.
I hate it..im so so mad.
I just want him to be a normal person.
A normal guy,a guy who will work his arse off to get the money.
Not by buying 4D!
Congrats for winning dear... but please fulfill ur promise to me.
As i said...
I dont want to get married to a guy who is into 4D.
But yah...i don't want to spoil the night so I gave in.
Dear dear....sigh.

Now im almost ending my Day 4.
Nothing much.
Be a good girl,stay home.
Hahaha...

Till then,
Missing Mr Jablalan.
xoxo

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