I appreciate

Greetings bloggies!

Its been awhile since I added an entry.

That title says it all. How I'm feeling right now.

I know she's there, working the midnight shift n toiling herself while here i am appreciating what she had done. That's the best thing I could ever do to show how much I appreciate her presence in my life.

She never fail to surprise me how she juggle around with the household chores, helping my mum with our house decorations and preparing breakfast for me in the morning and at the same time juggle with her own family. A good sister, a good daughter, a wife and thelist goes on. And when i'm at work, unpacking the breakfast she 'tapao'ed, I try to ask myself, since when did I ever get a girl whom does all that for me? and I realise how much I appreciate having her as a girlfriend.

Thanks dear for being there beside me for the 'close to' 3 mths.

2 words 'i appreciate'

Of dblO'S raids...dance...shots

The night we both have been waiting for..
A visit down to dblO!
Its been 11mths(HER),6mths(HIM) since we last step in dblO.
The queue..the people reminds me 4 years ago of my life. Those years...those excitement & those mats and minahs i hang out with..hahaha.

Due to the long queue we had to make an entry to O-BAR and re-enter dblO when the queue subside....
An entry to O-BAR was awkward for me...pool table...bar..and empty dancefloor.
Ordered drinks and we chilled out with the music.
Reminising memories in club...during our time..younger times. Lol

40mins in O-BAR and we manage to enter dblO. The moment we have been waiting!
Straight to the dance floor...
1/2 hour of fun and lights was on!
Damn! RAID!!! And the dj went "LET THE POLICE DO THEIR JOB" shito!
The raid went on for 30mins..
30mins after,dj went "THE POLICE HAD DONE THEIR JOB NOW ITS TIME FOR ME TO DO MY JOB!" LIGHTS OFF..!

And yah....clubbers did their job too.
Though we only left with an hour before the club called it a day...we had fun.
The crowd was awesome!!!
U guys rock!!!

Hmm....let me hang this entry here...
Why don't you guys let your imagination run wild...let your imaginations end this entry... *wink*
Clubbers should know the plot well.
Muaaacckkss!

Im a BAD SHOOTER...

Im a bad shooter....coz i keep missing you. Missing you like crazy..missing you like hell. Miss those smile of yours...miss that tease of yours...miss that look in your eyes...simply missing everything about you.

2 months ago i admit,i wasn't so into you. Now im honestly,frankly,truly and definitely say that IM SO INTO YOU DEAR!
You were in my mind every second,every minute. You were just there in my heart throughout my daily activities.

2 months ago, i never thought that i will love you more. But now....im loving you so much. The thought of losing you in my life fears me...Please don't leave me dear. I just can't bear to lead another life with another shattered pieces of hope. I just can't...not anymore.

I believe things happened with a reason. And i hope that your presence in my life is not just for a season. Im ready to give you my love whole-heartedly...And i already did.

I never bother much bout ur past bcoz i know and im confident enuff that i will love you more....even more than her..Trust me. I might lack some things here and there. However i'll try to be the best for you.

Im mentally and physically prepared to be your life partner....the answer to your question that you once asked. Just don't give up on me when things went wrong somehow,someway. We'll pursue what we wish for..together..hand in hand. Never let go.
Coz i still remember a text u sent me on 28th November 2008 @ 0734hrs...

"In dis relationship,there is no room 4 pain,anger,suffering n apologies. We're adults with big responsibilities so why bother to adding and putting our optimistic minds in dis relationship. So lets enjoy dis relationship with bliss not as a channel of frustrations n grievance k dear. I miss u,can't wait to meet ur eyes. Muacks"

And yah...i really can't wait to meet your eyes this thursday night...
Looking forward for that day to come.

For now,keep loving me.
Please don't stop loving me,the way i love you loving me...
I love you dada...only God noes...AMIN.

Post Saturday

*Yawn*
Good morning bloggies..OOps! Afternoon actually.(1305hrs)
Just woke up after a nite out of karaoke,supper & personal time together.
Lets recall the Saturday (13/12/2008)..

0930hrs : Woke up and ironed my uniform
1130hrs : Had early lunch (nasi,sambal udang petai,ikan sepat and telur asin...*lauk kampung nih...*)
1200hrs : Journey to work.
1315hrs : General report taking..patients..patients..patients..
1400hrs-2130hrs : i/v drips,changing round,parameter round,diet serving,collect diet,i/o charting,last office and finally report passing.
2205hrs : Change to civilian and meet my darling dada.
2230hrs : Reach our destination @ Cash Studio Simpang Bedok
2230hrs-0130hrs : Had fun time together singing duets..sampai salah bawak..merosakkan lagu. hahaha..
0130hrs-0300hrs : Had supper @ Simpang Bedok. We had cheesy fries,roti john mushroom cheese,3 pcs fried chicken & iced teh cino(HIM) lychee spin(HER). Azfar joined us around 2am. Teh-O gajah(azfar's). It was the 1st time i got to meet Azfar in real person. He was such a clown....hahaha. We laugh our hearts out with azfar's jokes. Merepek sey joke...dia belum bersuara gua dah bleh ketawa geng...hahaha. You'll noe wat i mean when u meet him.
0300hrs : Sped home due to dada dah tak tahan nak yak. Hahaha...sampai terantok kepala gua pat kereta...haiz..dada...dada..
0330hrs-0450hrs : The time we waited the most. Finally to spend tat quality time,just the two of us...YOU & ME. Without the crowd,without the noise....just US and the nature breeze...surrounded by the whisper of lovebites..and it goes without saying...what to happen next. *wink*
0450hrs : Drive home
0500hrs : Reach home and had a great laugh on the doorstep. Joking about mum's slipper. Hahahaha...
0545hrs : zzzZZZZZzzzzZZZzzzz

Its Sunday today..just had lunch. Dada sleeping on the sofa and me updating our blog. Rain had stop...but the weather is so cold. My eyes starting to gets heavier..lol. Sedap kan tido..cuaca mcm nie...
I think im gonna take a nap too. Working nite shift 2dae...Haiz.
Later at 4pm going Ikea..
Ok bloggies....!!! Tata!
Darlas OutZ!

C-food paradize

Evening bloggies

Title says it all

Yesterday had a nice decent seafood comprising of nasi ayam for me! a beef claypot for her and for our side dish - sweet n sour sliced fish n hotplate bean curd at a place where it brought me old memories of arwah papa. Like father like son lol. Then after dinner we managed to catch ourself with the amusement park and followed by a movie at Filmgarde , Leisure Park. Though it was a short outing but yeah it sure did pack a punch.

During times like this i feel so contented with my relationship. It might take once every blu moon to have an outing kan! At times i do feel lost, each of us busy with our working life, miss each other like hell then when we manage to date out, we go all out for it.

Looking forward for another outing like dis my dear.. Muacks! Love u!

Of MacDonalds & Pirated Movie

Hey Hey Hey! Its 0330hrs...dah pagi nih..
Juz hang up with my dear dada. Its been quite sometimes since we talked on the phone till the wee hours. The last time was like 2months ago,when you had ur long MEDICAL LEAVE. Lol..not forgetting during our wooing and dating stages. Well we still feel like we are still dating each other..Nice.
Dada & I had a real good heart to heart talk about life..about our relationship and about our past. An emerge of 2 different past,2 different versions of experiences to 1 love. All these reminds me to quotes that i has been a guidance for me in moving on with life. Let me share with you.
''Being happy doesn't mean everything is perfect. It means you have decided to see beyond the imperfection.''
''There's a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone and trying to fix everything. But it's not giving up. It's realising that you don't need certain people and all the drama that they bring.''
Renungkan....

6hours30mins ago...met up wit dear. Was there under my void deck so eager to meet his eyes...and embrace that cute smile of his. My heart pumped faster when i heard sounds of music getting nearer.(he and his music in his ride) HE'S HERE!!!
As usual.. i kissed his hand & he kissed mine. We drove to Macdonalds drive-thru @ Yishun. We ordered 2 sets of MEGA MCSPICY MEAL. Dropped by 7-11 to buy ciggy..a pack of MARLBORO RED for him.

Proceeding to Yishun damp...transformed the Nissan Presage to Mini-Bed. Lol.
We had our meal while watching dvd in the car. The show was AWESOME! Titled Crow-0 if im not mistaken..a personal mini cinema session. Juz you & me..leaning to each other.skin to skin,body to body..caressing each other's fingers and kissing each other's cheeks and lips every now and then..sweet kan..
Thou we had no lighter to light up our ciggies that you had to go out and ask for a lit,Thou the show was suddenly starting to stuck now & then....
Dear,i enjoy those quality times together...
Im loving you,Mazlan Bin Jaafar.
Ok im juz gonna exhibit photos...Photos that tells a lot.
After doing so,im off to bed. My head starts spinning now..My lappy's batt is running low too..
Still have 4 days of my leave...to rest at home..with family..before back to work..which evolve politics among nurses & doctors...including demands from patients & their relatives. Haiz...
Ok lah...Darla OuTz!!!