The way I are

Hello bloggies.

I was scanning thru my blog dated since year 2003 onwards, and comparing my life back then and now.

Too many changes in me since those days I left high school, I was like super hyperactive, single, I believed in no one else except for mine. I laughed at those thoughts when I was 18 or 19, me the simpleminded mat metal and how I hooked up and adore girls and stuff hehe! How I enjoyed my weekend teasing my family members , those days when aruah PaPa was still there and how I went fishing with him once every blue moon and all that stuffs.

5 years later here I am, feeling so old yet wiser than I used to be. Certain things won't change especially my simplemindedness, very contented indeed. One word to I'm looking forward in me now, Security, I still search within myself but to no avail. Probably I'm not up to that stage yet but I will one day by god's will insyallah. Commitment is another word which I tried to slot in my life and alhamdulillah bit by bit it does slot in well. At times I just wish i can tear myself apart to to be spending my life with my loved ones equally.

Some people complained as to how inconvenience it is when i started blogging here, so I guess I'll make friendster blog as a place where I pen down my thought and the way i am and leave my blogspot for personal entries of mine.

Here goes my blog entries as of year 2003 onwards. Take care people
http://www.lalan.blogspot.com
http://www.jablalan.blogspot.com

Coincidential Situation

I looked back at my past blogs, and yeah, what happened happened exactly around 3 and 5 years back...

Thursday, July 07, 2005
Yeah greetings again bloggieIts been awhile so where should i begin. My brain is all filled up with anger, hate, dissapointment, lost. And other negativity thats fills within myself.Its a sudden quietness in me that i went through. I cant remember when it happened, it swept me like the wind blowing across the the fields , blowing all the dead leaves.No tunes from a harp, no beats from the drums, it seems so quiet.I dont know why.I tried swimming deeper into my heart, trying to find the cause of it all. But To no avail .

Thursday, July 03, 2003
im back...damn just checked out some shit on my comp ....still remember the times me n Hani....i have 3 total logs on it...i need to let it go..need to delete it ....and i found a place to dump it..here!

And yeah thats how i am feeling now. Exactly 3 years after that now I am at the same position again. Probably what I need is more time.

New Blog opening!

Todays marks the new blog of mine!

New life!

And everything!

Thanks to all whom have been around!

I love you guys!